5:46 2006

Miel 发表于 2006-04-20 05:52:46

okay i finally figured out how to manipulate some simple changes to the default design for lazy people to use.
i have no idea why i put a an fucked tree as a picture for my blog, but hey. its much way better than using that pinky charboh default layout, and this is the better possible layout i wanted.

yes.. this blogsite can be bad if one has no idea how to manipulate it aka. zero understanding of html language. i mean. i am sure people want to make it more personal for themselves, colours..moods.. fonts.. and even some cool techical stuffs.. its all about ego.. make urself few good. been really presurred.. with that mr edgar su pumping in 100 dollars annually to get his website up.. and all i can afford is some ah thiong free base to splash my idea, hoping to attract the attention it needed.

i went through my old pictures.. combined 2 photos together. seriously i have no idea why i did that, one of the old true for this blog, and one of a freaking crazy 10 minute sudden storm in shanghai last yr 2005. i remember i was totally rushing for my camera, setting up the tripod, fighting against raindrop and damage in order to take a few snapshots of the angry sky. and what do i get.. bad exposure.. and i did not really capture the mood i really wanted. yeah.. u can have an amatuer slr camera, but so what.. u produce sucky pictures sometimes..

i use a yashica T3 camera now. its fun.. but really sad.. when the pictures come out blurred.. hey its not that i pcc or what.. my health has never been good.. hence my hands shake a lot.. and i tend to move around slow.. looking less alert than usual.. u think its funny to feel like a sloth?

i intend to upload more picture up. checking my account i realise i can have like 30mb of picture in my database.. hell why not make cheap use of it?

i ordered 1000rmb of ahtiong brand film iso 100, paid a deposit of 200 and yet to collect them, received a couple of phones from the seller, but i kept pushing it off. yes i am broke. and i really need cash. when i thought that work is coming. the work botched the next moment because i am unable to fork out quick cash. fuck what the hell, can't u see i need cash now mexico?!

school work is catching up. late assignments. poor attendence, one thing for sure, my guiding professor is damn piss with me. had lunch with me. i never see him so angry as i spoke to him of my situation for missing classes and why i needed cash so badly.. well he meant well for me.. but i need to feed myself!.. look i am 25 fuckign yrs old.. and it is so humiliating to ask for cash every 1 or 2 months each time from my ah=ba.. he is growing old that old man.. i am disappointing enough as a son for him.. still need to burden him here and then.. its not fun at all..

u all out there who think all international students who come here stud are rich.. u better think again.. its not easy.. some people squueze their life in here.. only to be disappointed at the educational system and welfare offered by the university.. and u think all rich? then go find the koreans, hongkong tong baos.. and taiwanese.. who come here with extremely good spending power.. riding thier honda jokers look alike in the midst of the night wind.. disturbing my futile attempt to have a good night sleep.

money money money.. come rolling to me soon.. grumbles..

week 10. buang liao.. dun think this semester will be good.. just looking towards the completion of 100 module points at end of semster. outcome = poor GPA

i wanna remain here. but can i remain here and find a good job in my industry. sometimes it so bleak to think about going back to the island.. i might end up like a security guard switching on and off the lights and stuffs daily.. hey.. i am not ah-neh.. i come here study.. of course hoping that my certificate is well validated and true to the presteige voice of FUDAN UNIVERSITY.

this is going to be another day of fucked up rest and goign to class with a drug addict look

i miss hainan island. at least i get 3 meals a day there.. and lot of attention from my uncles and aunties.

and pigs

and ducks

and chickens.

and life hazard sky falling coconuts.



grumble.