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Miel 发表于 2006-04-25 04:31:55

there are certain things i like to do during periods of time

every 3 months, i will suddenly bia one month of shattered galaxy just for the kick of it, pay 9.99 usd maxed up my units and then just remain maxed.. the thing is.. whenever i wanna have good connection, i will faced with the problems of having poor internet connection. in the place i stay in currently, we have four rooms.. and 4 rooms share a single line from a router. by left by right...internet connection should be shared equally through these 4 lines running out of the router.. however.. things are not always as it is.. whenever one start using some 3rd part software to download something, the bandwidth tends to run to that com in use..and when this happens.. i get poor connection for anyway online gaming.

these are the times when i start cursing really bad.. chain smokie. and start fantasizing what kind of movies they are downloading..porn...manga..anime..new movies..new serials.. PORNＰＯＲＮPORN-.-

ah fatt, ali, yennie, ahbi went to nanking yesterday.. hope that they have a good trip.. and good blessings of weather for the next few days for them.. to me.. nanking is a beautiful city.. with a tinge of the old that cannot be erase no matter how fast the modern buildings are tearing it up.. u see socialist identities on the nanking bridge.. with workers statues lookin fourth brilliantly with hope.. u see the aftermath of the world war.. remains of the japanese occupation..(thinking about it.. the memorial place seriously is to vague as a communication tool). a year ago... i was in nanking.. and i remember a very disgusting thing that happened.. when i visited the nanking massacre memorial hall... there was a bunch of tourists.. and they were singapore... inside this group there was this plump girl in her 20s.. she was viewing through the exhibit.. with a huge air of arrogance..the language she use.. remains vividly in my mind.. i rememebr her saying on a plague of the dead.. whether her name was in it.. and passing through this make-up exhibit on mass burial.. she said they look like dog bones.. maybe by writing this way.. u cannot feel the anger i felt then.. as a singaporean.. i felt really ashamed that someone from my country can act so uncouth, and sadly..shallow

viewing the plagues..:" eh got my name on it a not?"
passing through the mass burial area.. " wah.. look like dog bones.. those human bones"

2 things goes through my mind now.. as i am more calmed comparing from then.either: . she is a typical singaporean.. shallow..or
2nd. the exhibit must be really bad.. to allow people to joke about it.

i was rather downed when i went through the memorial.. it dawned on me war can be evil. and human can be horrendously, disturbingly capable of destruction and pain without remorse... i am always against war.. cause i know if one day singapore has to fight.. i will have to fight.. to protect the nation that i call home.. to protect the loved ones who are dear to me...i abhored the way the states fight their wars.. using big names to go against nations like iraq.. iran.. north korea.. vietnam.. to me.. it was just a political move to ensure america can always be on the steep age.. its all about the economy and oil.. capitalism... to me war.. should be avoided at all costs.. and when it happened.. it is to protect rather than destroy.... imagine looking at another point of view if u are those iraqian citizens.. those american soldiers come and tear ur homeland to pieces.. break ur infrastructure.. ur families incapitated.. how would u feel.? to us consumers globally.. we pay for the war america created.. rise in oil prices..economy crisis... its not right at all...

goign back to something less lightening...

i have a fish tank. i grew plants in it. right now.. its in the infant stage.. the plants are slowly growing..its really difficult to wait for the crawler to spread across the substrate.. filling the bottom up with greens.. each day pass so slowly suddenly.. i seriously want 3 weeks to end quickly.. so that i can install the pieces of wood into the aquarium. tie up the pieces of riccias and mosses on the pieces of wood.. and elt them grow wild.. and when this all happens.. i can start buying siamese algae eaters.. loaches.. bumblebees... and little fishy i like so much...

back in singapore.. there was a period i rear siamese fighting fish.. and then.. the indulgence falls into plant growing.. i got 5 tanks back in singapore.. all with plants.. all with it own unique look.. i cannot say that it was succesfully made.. because plants need co2.. and i create my co2 tanks using1.5l pepsicola bottles with yeast and sugar solution in it.. it is unstable.. and not productive.. here.. with a 70rmb co2 tank..i fill this time .. the plants will be way much better.. its just a matter of patience and weeding.. to get the best effects in the coming 6 months...

the reason why i suddenly have the urge to make it all up.. was that i need something to focus on... it is familiar and yet at the same time new.. its of the past.. and yet... to make ti happen.. its of the current.. its not really worshipping fade away ghosts.. but rather ensuring things i am familiar with work it out...

now.. all i can do is enjoy the little bubblets.. oozing out from the co2 tube into the tank.. as i become a farmer awaiting for the harvest in it.