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Miel 发表于 2006-05-05 16:19:47

recently, in our student life, in our social group, we seem to have a drift

lolli recently siam us like mad...always looking sad whenever i am around....

i dunno when it all started.. but when it did happened... it felt so alien.. and weird.. that there seems to be a gap going on in our life... filled with question marks.. cause we dun like it that way... and we also dunno what went wrong...

so that night.. during this hols.. when we saw lolli coming back from somewhere over the rainbow.. going back to dorm on his bike...we said hi... and all i get was a really cold..."[please return me my sim card asap]"....i was really stunned..what was i shown a face that lolli will usually show panda...what have i done to be push so cold against 3000 yrs never melt ice?...

then..i realise.. its rather painful and hurtful...cause i really dunno what i done wrong...

i dunno how ser and lio handle it..

and today lio... said.. its all because lolli felt neglected...

and perhaps its true.

i induldge in my internet gaming fiercely when i am in the moood..... and i tend to break all kinds of communication.. and whatever things people tell me.. i tend to filter it off.. full concentration on what i wanna do.....sometimes..i feel guilty.. i will break off from it and let myself die..so that i can have decent communication with people....

we all try to made ourselves feel better.. coming out with all the fucking reasons... must be u la miel.... must be u la lio.......and then i go what did u guys do on my birthday.. how come everything become like this now.....must be ah cai la.... zzz...
now adays... i just wish to load up my wallet... as much as i can... preparing for the future.. see what i can do in 2008.. or perhaps... if i get enough to study after 2008...

everything matters...each one of us.. we need each other.. when shit happens....and one of us drift away.. we tend to feel bad... and really want things to be good again......but then...maybe our lifestyles differs so much... that we live in decandence.. and it dun suit lolli much at all...

from roystan tan's movie...15.... ah beng say.... "aiya....peng you ke yi zuo duo jiu jiu zuo duo jiu la..."

maybe if sit down explain everything out.. say liao.. we have our own concrete space around.. things could be better no?
yes i dun reply sms. dun reply emails...dun do many things.. when i call.. i demand things.. and things i promised take eons to come or tend to be discarded.....but thats the way i am....and i know i suck hell in like in pr with people...but hell i seriously see no need in changing this life now..

lolli..... 你也是够他妈的。 [quote from yanrui]

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